Showing posts with label healing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label healing. Show all posts

Thursday, 12 November 2015

Review: salt. by Nayyirah Waheed


Synopsis
Salt is a journey through warmth and sharpness. This collection of poetry explores the realities of multiple identities, language, diasporic life & pain, the self, community, healing, celebration, and love.


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My Review

5 Stars!


your soul stained my shoulders.
my whole life smells like you.
this will take time.
undoing you from my blood.
-the works


The mere fact that most of this book is highlighted says everything. I saw a quote on Instagram and say Nayyirah Waheed's name upon it, I'm so thankful I saw it and it led me to discover her words.Simple yet powerful words that left me feeling so much. There is this rumble of restrained anger behind some words where in others it isn't held back. There is hurt pain, accepting, healing and so much more. It was like these words had been beaten down by the world yet stood up straight and finally fighting back when they realised they were more than the boxes the world put them in.


you.
not wanting me.
was
the beginning of me
wanting myself.
thank you
-the hurt


I have always enjoyed poetry, especially brutal poetry, the harsh side of life and when people with rough lives put all their passion, anger, raw energy into words and lay them out for the world. It's really something personal and very brave to allow people to read a part of their soul.I think its time to pick up more poetry book since they seem to leave me so inspired.


as a child
there was either
books
or 
pain.
I chose books.
-how I became a writer



Thursday, 9 January 2014

Blog Tour/Review/Giveaway: Beck (Corps Security, #3) By Harper Sloan


Book 1:  Axel- My Review
Book 2:  Cage- My Review
Book 3:  Beck (Below)
Book 4:  Cooper
Book 5:  Locke

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 Beck By Harper Sloan
Book 3 - Corps Security Series 
  
 

 **Warning** This book is intended for a mature reading**

~DEE~
I’ve always been good at wearing masks. Not letting anyone see the real me. I’m content being the happy-go-lucky best friend. The strong willed boss. The independent woman who doesn’t need a man.
But the truth is I’m just as broken as the rest of you. I’m terrified that all it will take is one person to make all my carefully constructed walls crumble into fine dust. So I guard my heart with everything I have. Determined to never let anyone get close enough to hurt me again.
All is perfect until HE walks into my life. No… he doesn’t just walk. He struts his good-looking, sex-oozing self-right into my space and demands that I see HIM. Making me want what I know I can’t have.
So I did the only thing I know how to do.
I run.
But he just won’t let me go.

~BECK~
The second I see her, I know she will be mine. I see past the gorgeous smiles and heart-stopping laughter. I see HER. She doesn’t want me to know her secrets or the past that haunts her, but I make it my mission to find out.
To make her mine.
She can run all she wants, but it will never be far enough to stop me from coming after her.
She’s it for me and she knows it.
She’s just too scared to admit it.

**NO cliffhanger, HEA, inter-connected standalones**

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My Review

4-4.5 BROKEN, HEART-WRENCHING, BECK LOVING STARS!!


Beck is book 3 in the Corps Security series and is the story of Beck and Dee.After reading the previous books there isn't much to go on other that the fact that Beck and Dee hooked up and Beck is infatuated with her whilst she keeps pushing him away. We don't know what it really going on behind closed doors until now.This book uncovers it all, fills you with emotions, twists and secrets that will leave you confused, shocked and angry that you want to pull your hair out.


“Patience wasn't even a factor. When you love someone, you fight. You fight for them, and you fight with them. She needed me to fight for her then, and I’ll continue to do that until she can fight for herself again.”


I knew I would love Beck! This hot alpha male with a heart of gold kept fighting for Dee, he needed her but more than that she needed him and he knew it. He saw right through her attempts to push him away and hoped one day he would finally have her, all of her.He saw her demons, he saw her struggles even when everyone else was blind to it all.He saw how lonely she was and wanted to be there for her but there is only so much you can do for someone who is so trapped in their own head. We all have demons, you either fight them or they end up controlling you.
I wanted more of Beck we had his POV but it felt like the whole book revolved around Dee.I wanted to know more about Beck, about his family what he wanted in life so on.It was like he was always there yet we don't really get an insight of his life without having Dee there.


'It’s like he really does see right inside me. It’s almost as if he can reach right in and pull out my secrets.'


Before reading this book I was like uhmm I am nervous about this one because I wasn't exactly Dee's biggest fan from reading the previous books. C'mon she has a hot, alpha male, who totally adores her and she is just going to keep pushing him away? Oh hell no! That just isn't going to slide psht. But then we got a little insight into Dee's childhood and things changed a little.But my main concern was that I didn't want to read a book where Dee would just be whining and pushing everyone away.


I am Denise Ann Roberts. Strong, proud and independent. A loyal friend, godmother and I radiate fucking happiness so that people will never see how lonely I really am.


By the time I finished this book ..well I was pleasantly surprised that I really enjoyed it and warmed up to Dee.My heart went out to her, she struggled a lot through life, went through thing no child should go through and then more bad stuff happened growing up and as an adult. Some memories can't be suppressed, some terrorise you, keep you awake at night and some, you have to live with for the rest of your life..


"I can tell, deep down, that she wants someone to hold her hand through life, but damn if she'll let anyone do it. There isn't any doubt in my mind. She's worth sticking this out for..."


Dee hides behind her smile never letting anyone in.After living with her abusive parents and having worse boyfriends who wanted her for her fathers money, or appearance she gave up believing that she could trust a man, that she could be loved and safe.The things she took in as a kid and growing up left her thinking the worse about men and as an adult it only got worse.Her only real friends were Greg and Izzy and by the time she met them it was too late for her to unlearn the things she learnt.


"Everyone around us looks at our fucked up relationship and does nothing but judge. They only see the outside, the window dressing. They don't see this side of Dee. They don't see her when she hits her lowest points... No, everyone sees perfect Dee, happy Dee, and the Dee that never stops smiling, even when she's dying on the inside."


This book made me kind of hate Izzy and Greg some.I was just so annoyed that they couldn't see the pain and loneliness behind her fake happy face.They were so lost in their own lives and I get that but claiming to be her best friends and so on pshtt! Maddox is my man..I just love him and can not wait for his book *excited*

"The first day I leave this hell, I am going to be a new person. I am going to be happy. I am going to be loved. And, I am going to find people to share my life with me that want to be around me. But I will never, ever, trust a boy."

Dee changed alot, she had to face her fears head on and take control.The scars her past left her heal and she becomes a much stronger person but it doesn't happen all at once and even though at times i wanted to shake her and scream at her for pushing Beck away I understood that she had to do this at her own pace. And oh Beck he was so damn patient and loving I just wanted to squeeze him tight and tell him to hang in there!

There is a big part which shocked me and a part of me wanted to be really sad and depressed and then the more dominant part was just so angry! Why? Why do you have to do this to us? Why can't books be happy eh? TELL ME WHY?!!

Overall this was a great book filled with, love, passion, patience, hope, strength, humour and family!



**ARC courtesy of the author in exchange for an honest review**

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About The Author

Harper lives in small town Georgia just a short drive from her hometown of Peachtree City. She (and her 3 daughters) enjoy ruling the house they dubbed 'Estrogen Ocean', much to her husband’s chagrin. Harper has a borderline unhealthy obsession with books; you can almost ALWAYS find her with her ereader attached. As an ex-reviewer and blogger, Harper's passion for reading runs deep. It wasn't until 'Axel' decided to take up residence that she realized her true calling. 

She started using writing as a way to unwind when the house went to sleep at night; and with a house full of crazy it was the perfect way to just relax. It didn't take long before a head full of very demanding alphas would stop at nothing to have their story told.

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Social Links
Facebook Author Page: www.facebook.com/harpersloanbooks
Twitter: @harpersloan 
Goodreads Author Page: http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/7122060.Harper_Sloan?from_search=true
Instagram: @harper_sloan
  
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Monday, 21 October 2013

Review: Making Faces by Amy Harmon



Synopsis
Ambrose Young was beautiful. He was tall and muscular, with hair that touched his shoulders and eyes that burned right through you. The kind of beautiful that graced the covers of romance novels, and Fern Taylor would know. She'd been reading them since she was thirteen. But maybe because he was so beautiful he was never someone Fern thought she could have...until he wasn't beautiful anymore.
Making Faces is the story of a small town where five young men go off to war, and only one comes back. It is the story of loss. Collective loss, individual loss, loss of beauty, loss of life, loss of identity. It is the tale of one girl's love for a broken boy, and a wounded warrior's love for an unremarkable girl. This is a story of friendship that overcomes heartache, heroism that defies the common definitions, and a modern tale of Beauty and the Beast, where we discover that there is a little beauty and a little beast in all of us

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My Review
5 BEAUTIFUL, HEART-BREAKING, EMOTIONAL STARS!


"I think people are like that.When you really look at them, you stop seeing the perfect nose or straight teeth.You stop seeing the acne scar or the dimple in the chin.Those things start to blur, and suddenly you see them, the colors, the life inside the shell, and beauty takes on a whole new meaning."

Oh where do I start? This book made my heart-ache so bad and it really makes you view people ourselves differently.Are we so shallow that we love/idolise people based on how they look no matter how ugly they are deep down? Or that we hate and bully because we can't see the beauty deep down? or that we don't even give some people a chance to show their beauty because they don't have a perfect face and body?

This is a inspiring, brilliant book which rendered me speechless.It explores the aspect that a beautiful face doesn't necessarily mean a beautiful person.Are we truly blind can we not see the true beauty within? Do some people feel that an ugly person doesn't feel the same as a beautiful one?

To me everyone is beautiful in some way or another.Never judge someone by the face they wear.The beautiful good looking man can be an abusive evil person, and someone with a disfigured face may have a heart of gold, don't let looks fool you.


"If God makes all faces, did he laugh when he made mine?
Does he make the legs that cannot walk and eyes that cannot see?
Does he curl the hair upon my head til it rebels in wild defiance?
Does he close the ears of a deaf man to make him more reliant?
Is the way I look coincidence or just a twist of fate?
If he made me this way, is it okay, to blame him for the things I hate?
For the flaws that seem to worsen every time I see a mirror.
For the ugliness I see in me, for the loathing and the fear.
Does he sculpt us for his own pleasure, for a reason I can't see?
If God makes all our faces, did he laugh when he made me?


This poem right here really got to me! Its written by one of the main characters called Fern.Fern is not pretty or beautiful like her friend Rita who all the guys seem to chase after, she doesn't have straight hair or teeth, not an amazing body, nope none of that but she has a beautiful heart and soul.Fern has always had a crush on Ambrose but then again who wouldn't he was beautiful but Fern saw more than what met the eye.She fell for his intelligence, his heart, his mind and much more.But Fern never expected Ambrose to ever like her back, why would he?


Ambrose had it all, beauty, popularity, girls and he was the best at what he loved, wrestling. He had is all going in life until he decided to join the army and drag four of his good friends with him. What happens when his life in the army explodes and everything changes.
What happens when Ambrose isn't beautiful anymore?
What happens when he has no friends left?

"Ambrose knew what it felt like to be whole, to be perfect, to be Hercules. How cruel to suddenly fall from such heights. Life had given Ambrose another face and Fern wondered if he would ever be able to accept it."

Bailey is Ferns cousin and best friend they have always stuck by each other and I loved their relationship.Bailey has Duchenne muscular dystrophy. He may be bound by his wheelchair but this guy is a true hero. Bailey makes you think a lot about all the things we take for granted, about all the things we complain about. Are we really so blind that we don't see that there are people in worse conditions than you and me?


Imagine knowing that you will die before you get old? 
Imagine living day to day life knowing death is around the corner.
Imagine knowing that you cant have a relationship, or a family because you really wont be around for long.



"How do you stand it, Bailey? Looking death in the face for so long?"
Bailey shrugged and glanced at him curiously.
"You act like death is the worst thing."


Bailey has always wanted to be a wrestler, his dad is the coach and even though he cant wrestle he always comes to every practice.Bailey thinks of Ambrose as his hero, what he would do to be in Ambrose's shoes for just one day. To do all the things he can do, even if it is just for one day.After Ambrose's life changes Bailey teaches him a lot, about living in the moment, about never taking things for granted. I felt so sorry for Bailey I really wanted to have the power to give him what he wanted for a day ahh I wanted to curl up into a ball and scream why is life so unfair!?

"I have no pride left, Ambrose!" Bailey said. "No pride. But it was my pride or my life. I had to choose. So do you. You can have your pride and sit here and make cupcakes and get old and fat and nobody will give a damn after awhile. Or you can trade that pride in for a little humility and take your life back."

When Ambrose returns Fern wants to help him, everything has changed yet she still finds him beautiful. Ambrose is filled with guilt, shame, self hatred and he just can't get over is. He can't face everyone, the people who idolised him, the people who wanted him to succeed and those who always thought he would do them proud.


"You are still beautiful," Fern said softly, her face turned to his..
"I think that statement is more a reflection of your beauty than mine," Ambrose said eventually..


Fern is just so damn cute as a kid awww bless her heart she is so damn beautiful with such a pure heart.She has been kicked down by people around her yet she walks through life with a smile.fern and Ambrose form a special relationship she understands him..she used to feel the same thing.She used to feel ugly too.

Three lives all connected, these three main characters take you on an inspirational journey..So grab some tissues and start reading!


"..Maybe then I could get some action.Problem is, how am I going to get a handful of tit if I can't lift my arms?"
Ambrose choked, laughing at Bailey's irreverence, but Bailey continued, unfazed.


Omg I loved this book, it was sweet, funny, so damn emotional and bloody beautiful! At the start I was like hmmm third person POV oh no! I prefer first person POv so the start I felt was a little slow and the flipping from past to present had me a little confused but as soon as I got into it ahh I could not stop!
This is the first book I have read by Amy Harmon and it wont be the last.This was very well written and I am so glad I got an arc.


"Do you think about how I look when you kiss me?"
"Yes." His voice was raspy."I think about your long red hair and your sweet mouth, and the way your little body feels when its pressed up against me, and I just want to put my hands on you.Everywhere.And I forget that I am ugly and alone and confused as hell."



**ARC provided by the author for an honest review**

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Friday, 30 August 2013

Review: Infraction (Breach #2) by K.I. Lynn



Synopsis
Waking up in the hospital after a terrible car crash, Lila has a long road of recovery ahead of her. More than just her body, she must recover her heart after an altering declaration by Nathan.

With all that happened between them she must chose to forgive him and take him back, or sever all ties. Nathan has a hard road ahead of him to earn back her trust, and doing so will open her up to the possibility of being hurt again. A possibility Lila doesn’t think she can survive.

The secrets Nathan keeps buried, hidden from the world, of the life he used to lead are revealed. They tell the horror of what caused the scars on his body, mind, and heart.

Can Lila and Nathan push through all of the obstacles in front of them? Will the journey be their healing, or their destruction?

My Review



4.5 Incredible, Haunting, Broken, Nathan Loving Stars!!



Two Broken souls
Shattered hearts
Painful memories

Can Lila and Nathan heal and finally move forward?


This is book two of the Breach series and after reading Dissolution (Breach #1.5),a Novella from Nathan POV, which was heart-breaking and made me love Nathan even more, I really had to have this book..And then K.I.Lynn you awesome woman sent an ARC I was over the moon *happy dancing* :D

Infraction starts off where the previous book left off, Lila is at the hospital after the car crash she was in and things continue from there..

This book was a lot more about growth in Nathan and Lila's relationship they have a lot of issues to work on they both need help and fucking away problems or pushing each other away wasn't working at all..

Whilst the first book Breach focused more on their sexual relationship Infraction focused on Nathan and Lila getting better and being free from their past traumatic experiences.


"The mask was gone, and for the first time I was seeing the true Nathan without any inhibitions. He was raw and lay before me. More beautiful than usual in his agony."

Both the main characters are broken and lost until they find each other..struggling with their pasts and haunted by heartbreaking memories how do they improve their relationship..
Nathan needs to gain Lila's trust after he destroyed it in Breach. He is consumed with past guilt which is slowly eating away at him. Will he be able to forgive himself?

Lila has her own troubles and is scared to let Nathan in again but she also knows she cant live without him. I felt that Lila's character became stronger and more stable than how it was in the previous book.


We find out a lot more about Nathans past and why he did the things he did. You find out more about his demons and what haunts him and it makes you fall even deeper in love with his character! I just wanted to give him a big hug (among other things) and make him feel better..
To move forward Nathan needs to make peace with himself, his demons are in his head, his guilt, anger, frustration is all aimed at himself.

"After everything, there was still that rope that bound us together, pulling me to him."

The ending took me by surprise! And had me thing whatttttt? Thats it??
yes I had a mini panic attack until I saw that there is another book in the series *phew*

Overall I really enjoyed this book,a beautiful, intense, heartbreaking story filled with forgiveness and love..

"He was furious, fists clenched at his side, and I could tell he wanted an outlet. It was amusing to play with him, so I laid it on thicker, smiling and waving at him like I was on parade. He growled. My smile turned to a glare. Spoilsport."

Yes yes I thoroughly enjoyed this book! :D


**ARC provided by the author for an honest review**